, and then he waited for more. "That's not a question," he 
prompted after a moment. 

"Well . . . I was worrying about . . .why you feel that way." 

"Worrying?" He picked out the word with surprise. 

"Would you tell me why? The whole truth, not sparing my feelings?" 

He hesitated for a minute. "If I answer your question, will you thenexplain your question?" 

I nodded, my face still hidden. 

He took a deep breath before he answered. "You could do so much better, Bella. I know 
thatyou believe I have a soul, but I'm not entirely convinced on that point, and to risk yours . 
. ." He shook his head slowly. "For me to allow this - to let you become what I am just so 
that I'll never have to lose you - is the most selfish act I can imagine. I want it more than 
anything, formyself . But for you, I want so much more. Giving in - it feels criminal. It's the 
most selfish thing I'll ever do, even if I live forever. 

"If there were any way for me to become human for you - no matter what the price was, I 
would pay it." 

I sat very still, absorbing this. 

Edward thought he wasbeing selfish . 

I felt the smile slowly spread across my face. 

"So . . . it's not that you're afraid you won't . . . like me as much when I'm different - when 
I'm not soft and warm and I don't smell the same? You really do want to keep me, no matter 
how I turn out?" 

He exhaled sharply. "You were worried I wouldn'tlike you?" he demanded. Then, before I 
could answer, he was laughing. "Bella, for a fairly intuitive person, you can be so obtuse!" 

I knew he would think it silly, but I was relieved. If he really wanted me, I could get through 
the rest . . . somehow.Selfish suddenly seemed like a beautiful word. 

"I don't think you realize how much easier it will be for me, Bella," he said, the echo of his 
humor still there in his voice, "when I don't have to concentrate all the time on not killing 

 

you. Certainly, there are things I'll miss. This for one . . ." 

He stared into my eyes as he stroked my cheek, and I felt the blood rush up to color my skin. 
He laughed gently. 

"And the sound of your heart," he continued, more serious but still smiling a little. "It's the 
most significant sound in my world. I'm so attuned to it now, I swear I could pick it out from 
miles away. But neither of these things matter.This ," he said, taking my face in his hands. 
"You.That's what I'm keeping. You'll always be my Bella, you'll just be a little more durable." 

I sighed and let my eyes close in contentment, resting there in his hands. 

"Now will you answer a question for me? The whole truth, not sparing my feelings?" he 
asked. 

"Of course," I answered at once, my eyes opening wide with surprise. What would he want 
to know? 

He spoke the words slowly. "You don't want to be my wife." 

My heart stopped, and then broke into a sprint. A cold sweat dewed on the back of my neck 
and my hands turned to ice. 


He waited, watching and listening to my reaction. 

"That's not a question," I finally whispered. 

He looked down, his lashes casting long shadows across his cheekbones, and dropped his 
hands from my face to pick up my frozen left hand. He played with my fingers while he 
spoke. 

"I was worrying about why you felt that way." 

I tried to swallow. "That's not a question, either," I whispered. 

"Please, Bella?" 

"The truth?" I asked, only mouthing the words. 

"Of course. I can take it, whatever it is." 

I took a deep breath. "You're going to laugh at me." 

His eyes flashed up to mine, shocked. "Laugh? I cannot imagine that." 

"You'll see," I muttered, and then I sighed. My face went from white to scarlet in a sudden 
blaze of chagrin. "Okay, fine! I'm sure this will sound like some big joke to you, but really! 
It's just so . . . so . . . soembarrassing !" I confessed, and I hid my face against his chest again. 

 

There was a brief pause. 

"I'm not following you." 

I tilted my head back and glared at him, embarrassment making me lash out, belligerent. 

"I'm notthat girl, Edward. The one who gets married right out of high school like some 
small-town hick who got knocked up by her boyfriend! Do you know what people would 
think? Do you realize what century this is? People don't just get married at eighteen! Not 
smart people, not responsible, mature people! I wasn't going to be that girl! That's not who I 
am. . . ." I trailed off, losing steam. 

Edward's face was impossible to read as he thought through my answer. 

"That's all?" he finally asked. 

I blinked. "Isn't that enough?" 

"It's not that you were . . . more eager for immortality itself than for just me?" 

And then, though I'd predicted thathe would laugh, I was suddenly the one having hysterics. 

"Edward!" I gasped out between the paroxysms of giggles. "And here . . . I always . . . 
thought that . . . you were . . . so much . . .smarter than me!" 

He took me in his arms, and I could feel that he was laughing with me. 

"Edward," I said, managing to speak more clearly with a little effort, "there's no point to 
forever without you. I wouldn't want one day without you." 

"Well, that's a relief," he said. 

"Still . . . it doesn't change anything." 

"It's nice to understand, though. And I do understand your perspective, Bella, truly I do. But 
I'd like it very much if you'd try to consider mine." 

I'd sobered up by then, so I nodded and struggled to keep the frown off my face. 

His liquid gold eyes turned hypnotic as they held mine. 

"You see, Bella, I was alwaysthat boy. In my world, I was already a man. I wasn't looking for 
love - no, I was far too eager to be a soldier for that; I thought of nothing but the idealized 
glory of the war that they were selling prospective draftees then - but if I had found . . ." He 
paused, cocking his head to the side. "I was going to say if I had foundsomeone, but that 
won't do. If I had foundyou, there isn't a doubt in my mind how I would have proceeded. I 
wasthat boy, who would have - as soon as I discovered that you were what I was looking for 
- gotten down on one knee and endeavored to secure your hand. I would have wanted you 

 

for eternity, even when the word didn't have quite the same connotations." 

He smiled his crooked smile at me. 

I stared at him with my eyes frozen wide. 

"Breathe, Bella," he reminded me, smiling. 

I breathed. 

"Can you see my side, Bella, even a little bit?" 

And for one second, I could. I saw myself in a long skirt and a high-necked lace blouse with 
my hair piled up on my head. I saw Edward looking dashing in a light suit with a bouquet of 
wildflowers in his hand, sitting beside me on a porch swing. 

I shook my head and swallowed. I was just havingAnne of Green Gables flashbacks. 

"The thing is, Edward," I said in a shaky voice, avoiding the question, "in my mind,marriage 
andeternity are not mutually exclusive or mutually inclusive concepts. And since we're living 
in my world for the moment, maybe we should go with the times, if you know what I mean." 

"But on the other hand," he countered, "you will soon be leaving time behind you altogether. 
So why should the transitory customs of one local culture affect the decision so much?" 

I pursed my lips. "When in Rome?" 

He laughed at me. "You don't have to say yes or no today, Bella. It's good to understand 
both sides, though, don't you think?" 

"So your condition . . . ?" 

"Is still in effect. I do see your point, Bella, but if you want me to change you myself. . . ." 

"Dum, dum, dah-dum," I hummed under my breath. I was going for the wedding march, but 
it sort of sounded like a dirge. 

Time continued to move too fast. 

That night flew by dreamlessly, and then it was morning and graduation was staring me in 
the face. I had a pile of studying to do for my finals that I knew I wouldn't get halfway 
through in the few days I had left. 

When I came down for breakfast, Charlie was already gone. He'd left the paper on the table, 
and that reminded me that I had some shopping to do. I hoped the ad for the concert was still 
running; I needed the phone number to get the stupid tickets. It didn't seem like much of a 
gift now that all the surprise was gone. Of course, trying to surprise Alice wasn't the 
brightest plan to begin with. 

 

I meant to flip right back to the entertainment section, but the thick black headline caught 
my attention. I felt a thrill of fear as I leaned closer to read the front-page story. 

SEATTLE TERRORIZED BY SLAYINGS 

It's been less than a decade since the city of Seattle was the hunting ground for the most 
prolific serial killer in U.S. history. Gary Ridgway, the Green River Killer, was convicted of 
the murders of 48 women. 

And now a beleaguered Seattle must face the possibility that it could be harboring an even 
more horrifying monster at this very moment. 

The police are not calling the recent rash of homicides and disappearances the work of a 
serial killer. Not yet, at least. They are reluctant to believe so much carnage could be the 
work of one individual. This killer - if, in fact, it is one person - would then be responsible for 
39 linked homicides and disappearances within the last three months alone. In comparison, 
Ridgway's 48-count murder spree was scattered over a 21-year period. If these deaths can be 
linked to one man, then this is the most violent rampage of serial murder in American history. 

The police are leaning instead toward the theory that gang activity is involved. This theory is 
supported by the sheer number of victims, and by the fact that there seems to be no pattern in 
the choice of victims. 

From Jack the Ripper to Ted Bundy, the targets of serial killings are usually connected by 
similarities in age, gender, race, or a co